Please help. i need advice.?

I have felt the same way. My heart genuinely goes out to you, I know how this feels. I question myself why I was even born. I have had failed relationship after relationship. I am 31, I have never been married, have no kids, almost all my family is dead or we don't speak to each other. I lost my older brother, who has been missing for over 10 years now. My other brother is a raging alcoholic that is drinking himself to death. My father is an abusive alcoholic that made my life miserable when I lived with him. I have no self esteem, I have very few friends, I don't have a job and I just want to sleep all day, I don't even want to get out of bed. What works for me, mostly...is I start the day forcing myself to smile. I take a multivitamin and try to have a decent healthy breakfast. Then I take a nice long walk. If I don't feel like walking, I get on the playstation network or facebook and reach out and talk with some good friends. If I need to, I take Gaba, L-Tyrosine and Fish Oil when I am feeling really depressed. I pray to God to give me the strength to get through the day and to help me find happiness. I find things I enjoy doing and I do them. I like going to malls, talking with certain friends, gaming, making youtube videos, etc. Getting a job would help a whole lot. It would open the doors for you to meet new people and make new friends and find out the happenin spots. When I was working, I was barely depressed. You have to search deep within yourself to find who you are and what makes you happy. Nobody is in this world to make others happy, you have only truly yourself to rely and depend on, other people will only disappoint you. Smile and be grateful to be alive, life is beautiful and you should get out and take part in its beauty. You can do it, just don't give up. Remember, you only fail when you stop trying.